crumbs to bricks __ Keneesha
FROM CRUMBS TO BRICKS will always be my motto – something I can call my own, to hold onto me; something from nothing.
I was raised with 13 brothers and sisters. At age five I was molested by friends and family. Child Protective Services yanked me from home and dumped me at a shelter. I’ll be safe here.
While residing at the shelter, again it happened, it was the older teens living at the shelter.
At this point yea I feel lost, lonely, and most of all confused about my situation. Why so many people? Why always to me?
Yes, yes, yes. I’m free. Moving to a nice foster home. I’ll be safe.
The same things kept happening there. I was afraid to tell anyone, mostly uncomfortable and embarrassed. Beginning to stay to myself, now blaming myself, scared.
Finally, I was out of the foster care system. My mom couldn’t get custody so I was placed with my aunt. OMG, at 13 my brother drugged me and had sex with me. Will it ever end!
I meet my dad when he came to visit one day when I was in foster care. After a year with my aunt I moved in with him – he’s the pastor of Mt.Vernon Baptist church in Houston.
This is the turning point in my life. I fell in love with music. It seem to be the only thing that would make me forget about any and everything and gave me peace. I started singing in the choir faithfully. But even though I love to sing and clap it was something about those drums. I’ve never taken any lessons before but always felt I had what it took. I started playing after church all the time and the elders always would run me off the drums saying stop Making all that noise! Lol I guess they really didn’t understand my gift that was being born within me at that time. one day the drummer didn’t show up at church guess who was there? Me! I played a real simple beat that I had been practicing before, thank God it worked because I start playing for the youth choir after that! from there my love for music grew. I started playing drums more and more the more I play the more happier my life seem to be. since then my life has been on a positive turn because of my motivation, my love for what I do which is my gift of music , and my determination to be something in life. I’ve had a lot of doors open in my favor that I never would have had if I wouldn’t have started believing in myself and picking up my self esteem. I’ve come a long way but I didn’t do it by myself. with prayer and my drums nothing is impossible. the reason I say crumbs to bricks is because at one time I belived that I was crumbs. I was shattered into pieces. I felt I was nothing. But now my spirit is rejuvenated! those pieces are now a strong beautiful woman I’m stronger than I was before. I stay positive, driven, and motivated in everything I do and positive things always come back to me. Along with my music i aiming toward being a mortician and fire fighter. I also hope to one day meet new wonderful people and be an inspiration for young woman to be strong internally and follow their dreams.
I don’t what this to happen to anyone anymore. My sisters are strippers. I want to be something more – like Cindy Blackman (video below, drummer for Lenny Kravitz and now married to Carlos Santana.
